you know that feeling you get when you wake up to find out your dad is in the hospital for what is later figured out to be a heart attack? you know that feeling you get when you feel so incredibly guilty because while you’re there looking at your dad in a fucking hospital bed you let one unforgivably selfish thought creep into your head about whether or not you’re still going on the beach vacation that was planned for that exact day? do you, by any chance, know that feeling you get when you realize that your father is not as strong as you need to believe? could you possibly know that feeling you have when you are forced to see your father as a “survivor”? i’ll never forget these feelings.
survive longer, please dad, much longer.
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